Call me crazy, but I have a very hard time accepting the fact that I'm an adult. I mean, seriously, when does that official day come? Was it when I got married? When I graduated from college? When I bought my first home? (Alright, Brandon technically owns it, but I know my name has GOT to be in there somewhere. I did sign LOTS of papers after all!) Was it when I had my first child? Or maybe it was when I survived the death of my second? Somewhere amidst all those milestones, I think I became an adult. But does it count even if I still don't feel like one? Does anyone ever feel like one?
Don't get me wrong, I'd much rather be an adult than a kid, or worse yet: a teenager! Those days were good, being free of responsibility and worry, but they were a pain in the rear too. There was way too much drama and WAY too many hormones floating around to produce anything worthwhile. And, on top of that, I like being able to decide things for myself, even if I do still ask my parents advice on most things. I just still don't feel like a REAL grown up, it's almost as if I'm a college student parading around in an adult body, pretending to know what I'm doing in the world.
Maybe I will be feelin' it a little more when I turn 30, that is a pretty big milestone after all. Yeah... I think I'll take that as my answer - that means I still have a year and 5 1/2 months until I inherit the title of "ADULT". Maybe by that time I'll be a little more accepting of it. Maybe by that time I won't feel like such a fraud. :)
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Oh Sara, I don't feel like an adult yet and I'm almost 34..LOL
I've got three biological kids 12, 10, and 8...One "unofficially" adopted daughter serving in the military. I wonder the same things, I certainly am NOT a woman, I feel like a girl until I look in the mirror and want to gag at what this whole "adult thing" and of course childbearing thing has done to my figure...LOL...
I figure that I love getting older and I LOVE to live each season to the max and full out striving after Christ with everything in the midst of every day real life stuggles and joys, failures and victories, then when I do arive at the destination of adult, I will be just a heartbeat away from eternity! I love this post! Thanks for sharing..=)
First of all, you have never acted like a "grown-up". You are still that girl laughing at the Twist-a-Nerd pen. And second, I hope 30 isn't the cut off because some of us will be hitting that milestone sooner than we'd like. I think, beign a grown up happens when we become fully responsible for ourselves and the direction our loves take. For me, it was when I graduated college and I was "on my own". That was the moment when I stopped feeling like a kid and started feeling like the world expected me to contribute and not just play around.
Sara, I loved this post. I agree...I'll be 36 next month, I've been married 15 years in July, and we have four kids! I was shocked to look down at my hands the other day and think "WOW. My hands look old." They reminded me of my mother's hands. I thought the exact same thing. When did THIS happen!? Ha. Like it happened overnight. I don't feel it either. Maybe it's the kids keeping me young, who knows. But I certainly do not feel my age. I still feel like a kid playing dress up her mama's shoes with Grandma's purse. Although, the baby dolls are a lot more work than I remember as a "kid". hee hee!
P.S. - For the record, I didn't mean 36 is "old", sorry! (smile) Not everyone's hands look "old" at 36. In the great words of the late Chris LeDoux..."It ain't the years...it's the miles."
I love this post Sara! I often realize that I still picture myself in my mind as a much "younger" version of me. I am often shocked when I look in the mirror or have a moment when I realize, "Hey, I'm looking older!" Interestingly enough I'm sort of loving it...but I still wonder all the time, "how the heck did I get here!!?"
Oh yes, I don't think I will ever feel like I'm an adult. When I was younger, I thought you became an adult when you got married. Well, that was 6 years ago and I'm definitely not feeling "adultish." Then, after marriage, I thought maybe I'd become an adult when I had a kid. He's now 1 year old, and I'm still not there. Right now, I think it's when you have more than 1 kid. So, I'm sure whenever #2 comes along, my rules for being an adult will change as well. I think I still see myself as a crazy, kinda irresponsible college student. Not sure I'll ever reach adult status. :)
I feel like an adult when I get bills in the mail. That's the defining point for me. However as an adult, I still wish to have as much fun as I can, which led to my husband and friends sliding across the kitchen floor in their socks the other night, and I was running into the bedroom and jumping onto the bed to see how high I could bounce (way awesome). My sister-in-law teased us for "not acting like adults" but she wasn't having any fun. :)
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